Trying to Stay Positive and Creative

Work has been so insanely slow lately. This worries me. The fall market clearly did not pick up the way everyone thought. We were busy for about two weeks but these past two weeks the days have dragged like summer. Part of me wonders when/if the axe will fall??? The other part of me almost hopes that I do get laid off so I can figure some shit out. Maybe it's naive but I really want to have a job a love. I don't think this is unattainable. Ken has told me in the past, "I don't associate doing what I love with my job." Ew. This sounds terrible to me. Going through your whole professional life hating what you do? Definitely not for me.

I'm thinking more and more about culinary school. To that end, tonight when I get home I'm going to register for some classes I found on line, just to see if I really do like it enough to spend the money and time going to culinary school. Ever since moving in the Ken I've cooked more and more (which I love!) so I'm wondering if I can take this past the hobby stage or if it should just stay as a hobby. I'm not sure yet, but I want to find the answer.

In sextrology it says most Leos and svelt unless they are leading an emotionally blocked life. Once that blockage is cleared they can easily lose weight. I'm wondering what my emotional blockage is. I'm thinking it has to do with my above mentioned job related problems. Also, my new BC is not working out as well as I hoped. I just started getting these sharp cramps and I'm feeling moody and I'm breaking out, and I'm getting food cravings. I shouldn't even be PMSing yet! I just don't think I'm meant for the BC, my body must be super sensitive to extra hormones because I never get the side effects from any other kind of medication. I'm going to give it a little while longer, maybe this is just an adjustment period? I'm kind of disappointed.