Tuesday, May 27, 2008
Yes it's True...
I am engaged, or we are engaged. And yes it rocks. Right now the only bad part is my ring is getting resized and I won't have it for at least a week. I can't wait till we can plan more. It's so exciting!
Monday, May 19, 2008
2 Things That Makes My Life Great..and the weekend...
Another thing that makes my life great: New Jersey. Especially defeding it to the haters (and there are many of them.) I couldn't begin to count how many people have said to my face "Jersey is dirty." Where I live is far from dirty-there's a least a quater of an acre behind my parents house, with a natural creek flowing through it, and my father's pond complete with frogs. Yeah, what a disgusting state. And to be fair I know that Newark and Elizabeth are gross cities but thtat is North Jersey and I proudly hail from South Jersey. The land of pine barrens and Philadelphia, Cape May, Ocean City, and I can proudly say that even Atlantic City is cleaning up its act. So in closing let me say that South Jersey is beautiful and even though I don't live there anymore every time I go back I know I am home.
Yet another thing that makes my life great:
Childhood memories (which slightly ties in with the above comments) I got a serious flashback this weekend when Ken and I were planting tomatoes in our front yard: my parents' vegetable garden. They had a pretty legit garden going on for a couple years. I remember how fun it was to run out there and get tomatoes or green beans for my mom. And in the spring my friends and I would walk through the narrow rows and look for tiny tomatoes and peppers. I couldn't possibly list all the memories I have here but I have very few bad ones and I know this makes me very lucky.
Anyway, on to my weekend-if you can even call it that. Ken father and his wife Donna stayed with us for two nights and let's just say it was taxing. They had out bedroom, the weather wasn't great, and in general it was just hard to gauge if they were having a good time, whichmakes me feel uncomfortable/bad. Plus I think they were preoccupied with thinking about their son and his hard partying college ways. I think he'll get his shit together in about 5 years but it will be an interesting five years. I am very glad life is back to normal. I also can't wait for the long weekend, I think Ken and I are going to Lake Anna. YAY fun! Work was blissfully slow today and hopefully will remain that way this week and we will have a BBQ on Friday. Good week! (I hope) And no I'm not at the gym today...in my defense I am exhausted but I did really well last week and had a nice long walk yesterday. Back at it tomorrow and hopefully I'll actualy get 8+ hours of sleep tonight. Fingers crossed!
Yet another thing that makes my life great:
Childhood memories (which slightly ties in with the above comments) I got a serious flashback this weekend when Ken and I were planting tomatoes in our front yard: my parents' vegetable garden. They had a pretty legit garden going on for a couple years. I remember how fun it was to run out there and get tomatoes or green beans for my mom. And in the spring my friends and I would walk through the narrow rows and look for tiny tomatoes and peppers. I couldn't possibly list all the memories I have here but I have very few bad ones and I know this makes me very lucky.
Anyway, on to my weekend-if you can even call it that. Ken father and his wife Donna stayed with us for two nights and let's just say it was taxing. They had out bedroom, the weather wasn't great, and in general it was just hard to gauge if they were having a good time, whichmakes me feel uncomfortable/bad. Plus I think they were preoccupied with thinking about their son and his hard partying college ways. I think he'll get his shit together in about 5 years but it will be an interesting five years. I am very glad life is back to normal. I also can't wait for the long weekend, I think Ken and I are going to Lake Anna. YAY fun! Work was blissfully slow today and hopefully will remain that way this week and we will have a BBQ on Friday. Good week! (I hope) And no I'm not at the gym today...in my defense I am exhausted but I did really well last week and had a nice long walk yesterday. Back at it tomorrow and hopefully I'll actualy get 8+ hours of sleep tonight. Fingers crossed!
Tuesday, May 13, 2008
A List
After an exceedingly tough day at work I have decided to start a list of 10 things that make my life great. I probably won't finish it in this post, but it's worth starting. **Disclaimer: This is in no particular order.
The kitties (especially Nina, yes I play favorites) I must admit that it is wonderful to come home and see Nina's cute kitty face and hear her meow at me. She is definitely the cutest and I really enjoy having her to take care of. It's amazing how much she has grown since we got her.
My family- including the extendeds. Whenever Ken and I talk about family I realize how insanely lucky I am. Not that his family is bad or anything but realize how lucky I am that I have or had a relationship with all my cousins, even if it just meant playing together when we were kids. And I'm glad that I get along really well with all of my aunts and uncles. As a special bonus they're all really interesting people and I think I'm a favorite, ha!
The kitties (especially Nina, yes I play favorites) I must admit that it is wonderful to come home and see Nina's cute kitty face and hear her meow at me. She is definitely the cutest and I really enjoy having her to take care of. It's amazing how much she has grown since we got her.
My family- including the extendeds. Whenever Ken and I talk about family I realize how insanely lucky I am. Not that his family is bad or anything but realize how lucky I am that I have or had a relationship with all my cousins, even if it just meant playing together when we were kids. And I'm glad that I get along really well with all of my aunts and uncles. As a special bonus they're all really interesting people and I think I'm a favorite, ha!
Monday, May 12, 2008
Gym Weirdos
What is it about the gym that beings out the weirdo in people? I can't take it, I must share with the world below please enjoy my gym weirdos:
1. Too-skinny-woman-constantly-on-the-eliptical: what are you doing? you're thinner than a stick. get off the eliptical and eat a cheeseburger. Also, you sweat more than a 250 pound man... how is this possible???
2. Yoga bitches: I hate you. With your dragon fly yoga mats chatting about getting soy lattes after class. You make me feel like the fat kid in 8th grade.
3. Dude who makes far too much noise while lifting weights: Really? You're not cool. Keep it to yourself. I kind of think you're doing it to impress the chicks on the arc trainers. Am I right? Maybe you could scream the answer out while doing the crunches in the air thingy.
4. Older lady who wear the spandex bike shorts to do everything: I know you've lost weight. Yes, I have noticed! But STOP.WEARING.THE.BIKE.SHORTS. they look good on no one. I don't think I've ever seen lumpier hips in my life.
Now that I've complained for a little while let me also say this: WHY do people shower at the gym? Someone explain. It only makes sense if you go before work. But at night? C'mon. Why get naked in front of strangers if you don't have to right? Maybe it's me...
1. Too-skinny-woman-constantly-on-the-eliptical: what are you doing? you're thinner than a stick. get off the eliptical and eat a cheeseburger. Also, you sweat more than a 250 pound man... how is this possible???
2. Yoga bitches: I hate you. With your dragon fly yoga mats chatting about getting soy lattes after class. You make me feel like the fat kid in 8th grade.
3. Dude who makes far too much noise while lifting weights: Really? You're not cool. Keep it to yourself. I kind of think you're doing it to impress the chicks on the arc trainers. Am I right? Maybe you could scream the answer out while doing the crunches in the air thingy.
4. Older lady who wear the spandex bike shorts to do everything: I know you've lost weight. Yes, I have noticed! But STOP.WEARING.THE.BIKE.SHORTS. they look good on no one. I don't think I've ever seen lumpier hips in my life.
Now that I've complained for a little while let me also say this: WHY do people shower at the gym? Someone explain. It only makes sense if you go before work. But at night? C'mon. Why get naked in front of strangers if you don't have to right? Maybe it's me...
Future Plans
Don't get too excited... it's not like I am planning out the rest of my life. By future I mean this summer. The first event I guess is Dover. Dover will be fun for the following reasons: 1. Mary is coming with me this time, 2. Penny slots, 3. Hopefully finally getting my Carl Edwards T Shirt. (I'm really hoping they've stepped up ther game since Richmond. He did come in second place this weekend.)
The next event is Ken's Mom's wedding. While I am...er... annoyed for various reasons about the whole affair there are definitely some positive things to look forward to: 1. Taking a day off work, 2. Being in the fingerlakes, 3. Buying 2 new dresses 4. Wine. All good things. However to achieve number 3 I need work out regularly for the next 4 weeks. I'm ok with that.
After that is my birthday-a very important holiday- Ken and I are starting to plan our Virginia wine tour. We plan to go to the Eastern Shore and hit Charlottesville on the way back. I can't wait to have a house with a wine cellar *sigh*
****Disclaimer! I am not a wine snob by any means. I know what I like and that's about it. The best part of going to wineries is getting the free or very cheap tasting. For instance: I don't think Ken and I were charged once on our way back from Richmond and one guy was very liberal with the free pour.
Besides these planned events I will also probably go to Boston in July and hopefully my parents will visit in June some time. Ken's dad and stepmom are coming this weekend. I hope the weather holds up. Also- I am making short ribs for the first time, I'm excited to see the end result-wish me luck.
The next event is Ken's Mom's wedding. While I am...er... annoyed for various reasons about the whole affair there are definitely some positive things to look forward to: 1. Taking a day off work, 2. Being in the fingerlakes, 3. Buying 2 new dresses 4. Wine. All good things. However to achieve number 3 I need work out regularly for the next 4 weeks. I'm ok with that.
After that is my birthday-a very important holiday- Ken and I are starting to plan our Virginia wine tour. We plan to go to the Eastern Shore and hit Charlottesville on the way back. I can't wait to have a house with a wine cellar *sigh*
****Disclaimer! I am not a wine snob by any means. I know what I like and that's about it. The best part of going to wineries is getting the free or very cheap tasting. For instance: I don't think Ken and I were charged once on our way back from Richmond and one guy was very liberal with the free pour.
Besides these planned events I will also probably go to Boston in July and hopefully my parents will visit in June some time. Ken's dad and stepmom are coming this weekend. I hope the weather holds up. Also- I am making short ribs for the first time, I'm excited to see the end result-wish me luck.
Tuesday, May 6, 2008
Richmond and Cryfest 2008
Richmond was fun- will have pictures shortly. One day I'll remember to do all the stuff I want to do when I get home from work. We called it a mental health weekend: eating at Shoney's, drinking lots of Miller Lite, wine trails, free tickets to the Nationwide Series, Clint Bowyer winning the big race, tube tops, can coolie-the best thing ever btw, hot weather, and lots of dirt. Good times!
Cryfest 2008 was last night. I guess I just can't handle certain things as well as I think I can. For the past month or so we've been talking about getting married a lot. Which is great of course- we love each other, we can live together without much problem, our lives are about 100% integrated at this point, etc etc. But I guess I can't discuss it any further with him till we're actually engaged. The dream I had Saturday sums it up pretty well- out of no where Ken comes up to me and says "We're getting married." My mom and dad are there as well as my aunt and uncle. My brother marries us, no one is dressed up there are no flowers, no rings even, I think we were in a parking lot outside a hotel. Ken doesn't kiss me at the end and as we're walking away from the ceremony I want to cry. I keep telling Ken that this can't be it- we have to do this again the "right" way. He only responds, "We'll talk about it later. We'll talk about it later."
My mom and aunt keep telling me the ceremony was "lovely" but I know they're lying to me. The reception was in the hotel we were married outside of and before anyone gets there I'm running around trying to make everything look better- and that's where the dream ends.
We talked about the whole thing briefly. He said he understands my problems with it. Maybe part of me thinks he's actually not ready to make that kind of commitment and I'll just be waiting on him forever. And really, I have no idea when he'll propose..IF he'll propose maybe it's not as soon as I hope it is and then I'll just be angry at him for getting my hopes up so soon just to be waiting till next year or something. He acknowledged that he's just as guilty as I am when it came to discussing it and what not. Somewhere in there he's excited too which is great but we just have to keep it on the back burner for now. And maybe this sounds bitchy or like I'm being one of "those girls" but really I am TIRED of just living together. Don't get me wrong-it's great and we love each other and we have a beautiful home but I'm just sick of it. And it almost makes me start thinking what have I done? What have I not done? Why am I not as good as HER? I thought I was doing everything right. I haven't cheated, I have a job, I split all bills, I do my part around the house, I try to compromise, what IS IT??
Cryfest 2008 was last night. I guess I just can't handle certain things as well as I think I can. For the past month or so we've been talking about getting married a lot. Which is great of course- we love each other, we can live together without much problem, our lives are about 100% integrated at this point, etc etc. But I guess I can't discuss it any further with him till we're actually engaged. The dream I had Saturday sums it up pretty well- out of no where Ken comes up to me and says "We're getting married." My mom and dad are there as well as my aunt and uncle. My brother marries us, no one is dressed up there are no flowers, no rings even, I think we were in a parking lot outside a hotel. Ken doesn't kiss me at the end and as we're walking away from the ceremony I want to cry. I keep telling Ken that this can't be it- we have to do this again the "right" way. He only responds, "We'll talk about it later. We'll talk about it later."
My mom and aunt keep telling me the ceremony was "lovely" but I know they're lying to me. The reception was in the hotel we were married outside of and before anyone gets there I'm running around trying to make everything look better- and that's where the dream ends.
We talked about the whole thing briefly. He said he understands my problems with it. Maybe part of me thinks he's actually not ready to make that kind of commitment and I'll just be waiting on him forever. And really, I have no idea when he'll propose..IF he'll propose maybe it's not as soon as I hope it is and then I'll just be angry at him for getting my hopes up so soon just to be waiting till next year or something. He acknowledged that he's just as guilty as I am when it came to discussing it and what not. Somewhere in there he's excited too which is great but we just have to keep it on the back burner for now. And maybe this sounds bitchy or like I'm being one of "those girls" but really I am TIRED of just living together. Don't get me wrong-it's great and we love each other and we have a beautiful home but I'm just sick of it. And it almost makes me start thinking what have I done? What have I not done? Why am I not as good as HER? I thought I was doing everything right. I haven't cheated, I have a job, I split all bills, I do my part around the house, I try to compromise, what IS IT??
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